Dear Diary,

I give up, I am going cliche, at this point I don’t know how else to start these things. Lets start with how royally pissed I am. No, correction, pissed does not describe what I am feeling. Actually, I can’t describe what I am feeling. It is a rather mixed bag. But I get ahead of myself to explain why I am in this place.
So it started waking up in the woods. The night before had been a rather reflective one so I was kinda in a “place” if you would. I can’t explain it, but I was connected a lot more to my newer self. So after waking up I got this sense that a wolf pack was coming towards us. Not like werewolves, but just a wolf pack. I just kinda wanted to know more about them. I mean, it just felt special or something that I was there with the opportunity to interact with them. So I played smart and showed a little submission as to not confuse the situation. I felt a connection with them and… well… just kinda kept on wanting to know more. So I watch them and interacted with them and ask them about hunting. They taught Cain how to harry prey and in turn she taught us. In all honesty, with the mood I was in, I could have spent a week with them…
But as life has seen to be as of wake, something like that could not fucking be possible. We woke up to the pack sensing danger. We ran with them towards it to find this huge fucking Wyrm tainted bear. Cain and Sina went instantly into action to attack. I followed suit, though I do have to admit I am more of second line of defense more than first. I am a little glad Calliope was not there and was apparently in town, cause what was to follow I am not really sure how she would handle. So Sina and Cain went attack mode, I tried to help, and realized the Eilene was not there. I went to the Umbra to make sure she was ok… and met Rose. *sigh … I should just start asking her every time I run into her who she is at this fucking point. It is not that I am against it, it is just… I like to know who I am working with… helps me know how to react. Anyways, so I get there and I see this bear cub with this huge tick like wyrm beast. Rose ripped the tick in half leaving the bear cub.
I can’t fully explain what happened next… it is kinda one of those things that hurts my rep in a way… but I fucking fell in love with the little thing. He was just so damn adorable, and alone, and innocent, and… well, fuck I am a girl, what the hell does the universe expect. So we bonded, and I wanted to bring him home… only to find… he was dead…
yeah…
Fucking dead, and I was attached to a spirit… I looked at his little body on the ground and was two seconds from ripping Cain and Sina apart when a better target came into sight…
See, about a week before I found out I was a werewolf, I made a big mistake and lost my virginity to this guy who I thought was my best friend who just turned out to be an ass and wanted me just for that. Yeah… he showed up… His name is Tivon. I fucking hate that guy.
So apparently he works for my Alpha’s Daddy’s body gaurd. Yeah, very awkward moment. We got loaded into a car and headed out. So now I sit, in a back seat, trying to figure out how I feel, seeing these big trucks roll by with this company name on them that has the symbol of the Black Spiral Dancers on them and some hippy van in tow… yeah… one of those days… again…